Ah! Being single again; I never imagined I would utter those words. Once I came to grips with the idea of being single again I could only imagine misery and a difficult road ahead. What would I do now when the only life I’ve known is being partnered? Would anyone care or even understand what I was going through? Probably not…
As far back as I can remember I’ve been in a relationship and have never really been alone. Alone to find or discover who I was or what I was looking for in life, or in a partner. I’ve had some really great relationships but obviously something as gone wrong along the way. Something that has made me walk away from each of them. Afraid of commitment, I think not; for the previous relationship lasted 20 years and before that seven! I was a mere child! LOL
For the last 30 years I have made decisions as part of a couple; however now, I am no longer part of a whole; I am the whole! Making decisions for one soul, mine! Decisions that will only impact one soul, mine! Scary, yeah kind of, but I am ready to tackle what may come my way.
It’s so funny; there must be a sign on my forehead that reads, “SINGLE” because dating offers are plentiful. Maybe it’s that my ring finger is looking pale and lonely these days! Whatever the case, I think it’s all kind of cool! This old man still has it going on! I am lean and trim, tanned and a pretty smile! LOL why wouldn’t the offers be plentiful! LOL
But seriously, this time around I will take my time when dating, meet new folks and really take the time to get to know each of them. Who knows maybe make some new friends? You know, sometimes love can be blind and one can ultimately make a rash decision… I’m not saying my past relationships have been wrong but what I am saying is I will not rush into anything without careful consideration to the qualities I am looking for in my next soul mate… And folks, the next one will have some really big shoes to fill! HUGE!
So in closing, I can only hope that the next relationship will be my last and take me into the next frontier, hopefully! Eek, that is a scary thought! But that I leave in God’s hands. For now I will take one day at a time and enjoy every moment. There is no rush…or is there! LOL
Hey:
I could have written your article. I thought I was reading about my own life.
Rock on…peace.
Hey Rosemary, Thanks for the comment on my post. Yea its tough starting over but we have no choice. We must keep living and that means moving forward and onward. Peace my friend…
Art
You know we do not need anyone to make us whole, we are strong on our own. Take it from me, been there, done that. Life is too short to dwell on needing someone to make us whole. Are friends really friends? No, they are over rated, that is why we do not hear from them, and we do not stay in touch. Friends come and go, and we still survive. Make every minute count and be happy with just being you. That’s my opinion.
Love you,
Aunt Tina